Tuesday, March 10, 2009
♥ greatest love of all
Every time I have problems running through my mind. The thought of how unfair life is, always comes in my mind. Currently I’m experiencing a problem I think have no solution anymore. I couldn't think of a solution to my problem while for some it's easy to fix.
The unfairness of life for me began when I found out that I was near sighted. I first found out about my deficiency when I was currently in 3rd grade, about 8 or 9 years old, but I just kept mum about my condition for a year until my adviser told me to consult it already for she took pity of me on the way I copy my notes, by making "chinita eyes" so that I could see clearly or better. I thought of it as unfair because I was the only one among my classmates suffering from it; I was the only one among my friends who wore glasses at such an early age. My Lola would say that I got this deficiency because of the medication I took while I was treated for tuberculosis, which I got because of second-hand smoke from my dad, at the age of around 4-6 years old. My tuberculosis had relapsed when I was at 4th grade. I was the sick kid at school; I would vomit at canals in the middle of my class because I don't feel good. I would be present in my classes for half of the year and spend my time at the hospital or at home.
I envy the kids before who have better health than me and have better eyesight than me. But still at an early age I learned to embrace life as it is.
I don't want to think I am different but instead I learned that we are created by God in his own image and likeness. I should not belittle because by doing this I belittle God also. I should not abuse my body because this is God's temple and I should learn to love and take care of my body and myself. From now on I should love myself first because as the classic song goes "The greatest love of all is learning to love yourself"...
The unfairness of life for me began when I found out that I was near sighted. I first found out about my deficiency when I was currently in 3rd grade, about 8 or 9 years old, but I just kept mum about my condition for a year until my adviser told me to consult it already for she took pity of me on the way I copy my notes, by making "chinita eyes" so that I could see clearly or better. I thought of it as unfair because I was the only one among my classmates suffering from it; I was the only one among my friends who wore glasses at such an early age. My Lola would say that I got this deficiency because of the medication I took while I was treated for tuberculosis, which I got because of second-hand smoke from my dad, at the age of around 4-6 years old. My tuberculosis had relapsed when I was at 4th grade. I was the sick kid at school; I would vomit at canals in the middle of my class because I don't feel good. I would be present in my classes for half of the year and spend my time at the hospital or at home.
I envy the kids before who have better health than me and have better eyesight than me. But still at an early age I learned to embrace life as it is.
I don't want to think I am different but instead I learned that we are created by God in his own image and likeness. I should not belittle because by doing this I belittle God also. I should not abuse my body because this is God's temple and I should learn to love and take care of my body and myself. From now on I should love myself first because as the classic song goes "The greatest love of all is learning to love yourself"...
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